Madame X - Wilder Jasinda (книги хорошем качестве бесплатно без регистрации .txt) 📗

“For what I want to do with you, and how long it’s going to take.” Oh, the promise in those eyes, those words.

I shiver. “Oh.”

“Yeah.” He draws a deep breath, as if for courage.

His eyes roam my face, as if memorizing. My hands still pinioned in the gentle circle of his left hand, his right nudges my chin up, tilting my face up to his, the pad of his thumb brushing my cheek and then skating over my forehead, sliding a lock of hair away.

“Damn it,” he murmurs,

and kisses me,

and kisses me,

and kisses me.

Breathless, dizzy, heart madly beating, lungs seizing, hands fluttering and clutching, I kiss him in return.

A kiss. Such a simple thing. Two mouths meeting. Lips touching, a little moist, tender yet firm, hungry yet tentative. Hands reach, dare closer to erogenous samples of skin. So simple. Yet so complex, so fraught with meaning. Pulsing with questions, throbbing with possibility.

Does he kiss me to begin something else, something more?

Do I kiss him to beg for more?

Can we kiss to merely kiss, to find each other’s fathom, to plumb the depths of desire without the vulnerability of shared nakedness?

I break his hold on my wrists. Reach up, snake both arms around his strong neck, cling to him. Press up against him. We pause for breath, lips touching but not locked, gasping, eyes open and seeing one another from so close that features blur. His eyes are blue like the deepest ocean, the shade of night just past twilight when the sun has sunk and stars do not yet pierce the sky. His hands find my waist, find skin—all there is to find of me is bare flesh, for I am naked, and unashamed, and full of hunger.

The floor falls away, and my legs wrap around the hard wedge of his hips. The taut firmness of his belly is hot against my bare core. He spins, presses my spine to the window. His hands cup my naked bottom, keeping me aloft effortlessly, his tongue delves into my mouth, steals my sense and my breath, steals my will, steals my desire to know anything but this, but his kiss, but this moment.

I clutch his face, palms to faint stubble. I am confident in his hold on me. Given over to him. Lost to this. Anything could happen, and I would want it, as long as it is with Logan Ryder.

I don’t know why.

I just know he possesses some secret power over me, and I cannot resist it.

One hand now holds me up, a strong forearm barred beneath me, his other hand sliding up my spine, smoothing over skin, up and up, finding my neck, squeezing, massaging, kneading, and then back down. Soothing, yet arousing. I want to relax into him, and yet I want to devour him. My hands, too, seek more, explore, reach, find. Shoulders, hard and round. Ribs, waist. Broad back, hot skin. Up into his hair, under the damp, wavy locks.

I feel him gather my thick hair into a fist, gripping at the base of my skull, tilt my head back so I’m staring up at him—or I would be were my eyes open—and his kiss plunges me into oblivion. The hold on my hair is delicious. Firm, yet gentle. I cannot break away, should I even want to.

I do not.

I wish only to be kissed, and to eagerly press my lips up to his and taste his tongue in my mouth and clutch and cling to the endless maze of muscle and taut flesh.

How long passes thus? Minutes? Moments? Hours?

I once read in an old text that a moment is one-fortieth of an hour. Perhaps a million moments pass, and I count each one, sear each moment and stamp each moment onto my mind, into my memory. I do not want to ever forget this experience with Logan, should I get nothing else with him.

A myriad of moments.

His hands, both of them once again on my bare bottom, holding, cupping, gently squeezing, then his hand on my cheek, rough, hard, callused, strong, gentle as the sweep of a downy feather across skin. His lips, scouring mine, tilting, nipping, his teeth catching my lip, upper and then lower. The bite of his teeth on my lower lip is a drug, the tug, tug, tug of his teeth an aphrodisiac.

I feel my lower lip pulled away, feel his breath and his tongue, and I am turned into a wildling.

I make a sound in my throat, a noise I cannot describe as anything but a growl.

But then, just when I am contemplating how to reach down between us and free the button on his jeans and grasp his hardness in my hands, Logan sets me down and backs away.

I am utterly naked, the towel dropped and forgotten.

A tableau: me, nude, nipples hardening under his ravenous gaze, desire pooling at my core in dripping slick heat, his zipper bulging, a vein in his neck pulsing, fists clenching and releasing, chest heaving, my breasts rising and falling with my own crazed breath. A moment, where I know he is mere moments away from assaulting me, and I would not stop him, would only encourage him and moan for him and beg him for more.

“Jesus, X.” He rubs his jaw with a palm. “You make me fucking crazy.” He sounds shaken.

I cannot stand upright, can only lean weak-kneed back against the wall. “I have to know what you want from me, Logan.” The words tumble out unbidden.

He tilts his head and frowns. “What I want from you?” He kneels, gathers the towel in his hands, presses it to my chest, covering me.

I am not unaware of a certain reluctance in him as he does so.

I struggle to stay upright, lock my knees, scrape trembling hands through my hair. “I don’t trust myself with you. You make me . . . wild. But my situation, it’s not . . . I’m not safe. And I need to know what you want. What’s happening. I—I—”

He moves like lightning, his hands somehow instantly gripping my upper biceps gently, thumbs tracing circles. “You can trust me, X.”

“I want to.”

“But?”

“But how do I know? I can’t even breathe when I’m with you. It doesn’t make any sense. I don’t recognize myself, and everything is scary enough as it is without feeling like I’m going to—I don’t know. Lose myself. I barely have anything to lose, but even that is . . . at risk.”

“I’m not sure I’m following.”

I shake my head, pull out of his grip, pace away. “I’m not making any sense. Which is unlike me.”

He follows me but doesn’t grab hold again. “You know, I’ve noticed something.”

“What’s that, Logan?”

“You are very adept at avoiding talking about yourself.”

I shrug. “There’s not much to say about myself.” This, at least, is a truth.

“There’s so much to who you are, it’s impossible to even know where to start.”

I frown. “You make it seem like I’m complicated.”

“Complexity, thy name is X.” He’s close to me again, the damp, cool towel the only barrier between our bodies. I can’t help but rest my forehead against his chest.

“That’s not true,” I protest.

“Then what’s your favorite color?”

“I don’t know.”

“Favorite poet?”

“E. E. Cummings.”

“Favorite food?” His voice is in my ear. Rumbling, buzzing, intimate and familiar.

“I don’t know.”

“Favorite band?”

“I don’t know.” Instinctively, I turn away from the scrutiny of his gaze, except the towel is only loosely draped against my front, so I now bare my back to him. I feel his eyes on me, on the curve of my spine and the swelling bubble of my backside. “I don’t know anything about myself, Logan. I don’t know. Okay? I’m not complicated, I’m . . . incomplete.”

“Babe. You’re complex.” His palms skate over my back, both of them moving in soothing circles. “It’s not a bad thing. It makes you mysterious. I get the feeling a man could spend a lifetime getting to know you and still not unwrap all your layers.”

“You barely know me.”

“Exactly.” A pause. Fingers in my hair, which is still damp. The intimacy of this moment makes my heart ache. “The only name I’ve got for you is X. I know you’re of Spanish descent. I know you work for Caleb Indigo, and you’re hard as hell to find, even for one of Caleb’s girls. And that is saying something.”